I felt helpless and aimless and did not know what to do in life. In my desperation to find some kind of objective, I decided to lose weight. That's what made me really want to lose weight. And it's kind of fun that I had suffered from years of people making comments just my size, and that the comments did not mean anything to me. It seems so obvious, but my revelation when I realized I had to do it for me. None of my family or my friends or stupid idiotic comments made. It helped me understand how I had been negligent over the years.
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